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My very first engagement

It is not easy to keep away things from your partner especially when you are planning a surprise. To add to it, is this lock down misery. This was the constraint faced by H as she really wanted to do something special for A’s birthday. She couldn’t even go shopping in this lock down. I presented her few ideas with […]

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10 ways to dealing with Ruminating thoughts

I recently finished a brilliant book ‘ The Body keeps Score’, which has studied trauma and its effects over the past decade, research in the area and the current best practice on dealing with trauma. Whilst reading, I realised how one of the biggest problems in mental health is ruminating.Ruminating thoughts are excessive and intrusive thoughts about negative experiences and feelings. Most of us […]

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The Last Slice

It’s the last hour of weekday.I am ready to unwind,“What’s the plan?”, flickers on my screen.I promptly type, “Care for a drink?”One turns onto two. Two to many.Now, hunger pangs roar as savvy restaurants are unkind.“All booked, All booked”, they cry.Last minuters like us are left high and dry.Big fast food names are a no-no.Kebab shops around here are so-so.Our eyes meet, our lips wet.“Is that what you have been thinking?”“You bet!”One Pepperoni and One Caramalised Onion are under attack.Our mutual love for Pizza, cannot be held back.“Go for it!”, he encourages me, eyeing the last slice.“Tomorrow?”, I succumb being sincere and nice.Suddenly, I remembered such last morning after.My annoyance at empty cartons was met with laughter.Now, I couldn’t let it happen twice.The great betrayal at the Last Slice.

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Valiant = Vulnerable

Little boys and girls are often told and shown stories of heroic bravery when they are growing up. Who doesn’t like a tale where a righteous hero fought against a nasty villain.For people like me who never chose to argue loudly, push and shove around the playground, a title is passed very quickly. Wimp. Radubai. Limbutimbu. To make matters worse, […]

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Buddha’s Crest

A fallen seed from the heaven,Are you frightened of getting dirty in the muddy waters?Hold your reins against those torrential currents and menancing pests.Others may bloom at the will of sweet sunshine,But only you will learn to breathe underwater.Blossom solitary.Unfluttering your pearly white petals,As the Buddha’s Crest.Blossom solitary.

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Child of Twilight

I stood firmly as a tree,witnessing a miraculous sight.To my left the sky was on fire,Burning deep yellows to orange brights.Consciousness at its peak, analysing this blissful time.To my right the sky was electric,Soothing deep indigo to silver ink blues.My sub conscious gently breaking into a melodic song.I stood firmly as a tree,witnessing a miraculous sight.An immersed whole me,The child […]

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My womb in agnst

Slam down the biological clock,Screaming at me tick tock, tick tock. Clomid, Metformins, that thirsty blood sucking syringe,Like it’s a past life revenge.Ensure a supply of Collagen and vitamins,Don’t you dream of a bottle of Heineken.Gluten free, high protein,Your unsolicited advice is truly bothering. Despair aligned to the moon waxing or waning,My wombs agnst is silently draining.Soaked bedsheets after nightfall,Awkward […]

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Inner Space

High consumption of OTT platforms is my current escapism as Lockdown 3.0 progresses in Britain. My recent one being the critically acclaimed “Is love enough Sir?” The titular question is still looming in my mind for days. But most importantly the plush but sombre tight space where these individuals fall in love. It almost becomes a character in itself. So, […]

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A Saudade for Goa via Portugal

Come December and smiles start getting wider on faces in London. It’s the favourite time of the year and nobody can keep calm. For me, it is also a reminder to finish off annual leaves and seek slightly warmer, sunnier avenues.So off we went to Portugal for a small quiet holiday. For better weather, to relax after a hectic year. We are now so used to travelling in Europe that I have given up researching the places before and take the best out of moments itself. (Yeah! I know, the 30s probably)We landed in the northern city of Porto and stayed in a lovely apartment by the River Duoro. The city is so small that you could cover the historic downtown’s cobbled pathways in a day.The potterhead in me was thrilled to visit the oldest bookshop in Europe – Livraria Lello for apparently J K Rowling was inspired by its spiral wooden staircases and the stained glass ceiling. It’s a bit touristy now but its totally worth it for Eur 4. So, we spent most of the evenings lazing around in the apartment, reading a book and overlooking the river and the famous  Ponte Louis bridge, designed by Théophile Seyrig, a disciple of Gustave Eiffel.Of course, the real reason for visiting Porto, was sampling the famous Port Wine. After all, Port Wine is the first alcoholic beverage I have had! (Thanks Dad) Its synonymous with Goa, after Feni of course. But Port Wine has […]

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